You really are doing so well, even if to you it seems like you are only doing good on your thread but not in "real" life. Trust me, you are a much better person than you were at the start of all of this, LOOK at all of the people you have helped - if not for the "bomb" you would not be here and your words of wisdom and encouragement would be missed dearly. Hang in there sister!!! I am routing for ya!