Always, let me chime in with GH.

You really are doing so well, even if to you it seems like you are only doing good on your thread but not in "real" life. Trust me, you are a much better person than you were at the start of all of this, LOOK at all of the people you have helped - if not for the "bomb" you would not be here and your words of wisdom and encouragement would be missed dearly. Hang in there sister!!! I am routing for ya!