Wow, that's good stuff. You and GH are so good at self-reflection and becoming aware of things almost immediately before they spiral out of control. Proud to know you. Hold on, you're doing well.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3