Amen to that, SH!!! Thanks for the input. I am trying to get better with my reactions, and the biggest motivator for me was our last R talk, where H opened up about so much and commented that it was b/c of my demeanor. He said that he just couldn't talk to me anymore...that hit home. I knew that, but to hear it really made me sad and determined to never make him feel that way. He said that he now felt safe with me. That meant a lot.
I also realize that whenever I hit a point where I feel whether this is worth it, worth trusting, putting my all....I remember H's conversation and the things he said about me and realize what a BIG risk he took in actually sticking around, observing these things and believing them. So, little by little, we both do this for each other.
