I feel like I should post some nice things that H did the past days...to be fair and not that I am simply griping. I have enough to gripe about, too!!
He suggested moving out for me, as he felt his presence was painful for me and that I could not think in an obligatory R each day. He's right, it's kinda nice to wake up alone to cry, be in a sour mood, etc. I told him that I would move out, I wanted to get away from the house, etc. He said he would agree b/c I insisted, but said that it hurt his pride and aws very difficult to let me move out. I said I respected that and we could trade next week, but it's what I wanted/needed. He appeared to be worried about me....nice but a little too late on some levels.
Weird, for a person who says they are still confused, still in touch with OW, and not come to me with details and any final motions, he brought up the topic of buying a car soon...I was quiet b/c I think it's weird to talk about....he also said he wanted to participate in an event I'm in soon to support me, be there with me. That was SO sweet....hard to resist, but I think I might say NO b/c it's something I'm doing for ME, kind of like a personal growth time of life thing.
He's also made a few more gestures to be serious....been very complimentary on my looks, interested in things I say, justmore engaged. It's weird...after being ignored for so long. I have lost the urge to care, trust that this is real and not just out of guilt, which is probably what it is.
