Hey NYS, I'm so happy to see you!! And with good news no less. I just happened to see your sceen name, and I sort of did a double take.
Even though you say K would have to change a great deal more for you to want more than friendship with her, it seems that you will at the very least, get the closure and healing that you need. I'm glad you're back friend!
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."