Out GAL and all...lmao - at the grocery store w/ 2 little ones! I crack myself up.
OK....here goes....I looked back over the email I sent him yesterday and I really don't think it was anything bad...all it said was 3 lines - I heard what he said about attending the graduation; it explained why he didn't get here until late; and that I was hurt but didn't want to discuss it right then. He jumped all over me - saying he didn't go, he was reading from a flyer, OW didn't attend so why would he. And in his words "We ended everything 2 weeks ago". After this, I just lost it - I think all the pent up frustrations just got to me and I just started crying. He wasn't here of course, so didn't know.
He emailed me again, kind of yelling at me, then ended with " I see where this is going". WTF? I responded with I was sorry that it bothered me, that I felt damned if did/damned if I don't; saying when I listen to you, I hear this. When I don't listen to you, you make sarcastic remarks about that and "Acting as if I never cared is part of what contributed to the downfall of our relationship. "
Once he wasoff the air, he was headed to the parts place for my alternator and called, I was still really crying. I know he heard it, the convo took a bad turn - yelling, blaming - all the wrong the things - from both of us. I ende dup hanging up on him...he called back a few minutes later asking why I hung up. I told him because I was so angry, I just couldn't talk anymore. He said it wasn't the way to handle things and I said I know and thanked him for calling back.
When he got here, we talked/argued a bit. I told him the only reason I said anything was because I knew it was going to eat me up and that once he got here, he would be able to tell I was upset and I didn't want it to turn out the way it WAS turning out (i.e. in a stupid argument). I was still feeling sick (cold) and so was he. He went to the computer - I said I was taking a nap and went to the bedroom. He came in a few minutes later and said he was going to lay there for a bit. I said Ok, I need to sleep - trying to keep the cold away. Somewhere in there he said that he hadn't seen OW in a couple of weeks and that he was doing everything he could to appease me. I don't know what he means by that....I really don't - could be taken a couple different ways.
We never really finished the conversation - I fell asleep; so did he.He stayed here until about 7:30, then went to his apt. Around 10:15 or so, I was in bed and the phone rang. It was him - he asked if I was sick. He sounded horrible...he said he was really, really sick and wanted to see how I was feeling. I was not as bad as he was. We talked for a couple of minutes, then hung up.
This morning, he called around 6:45 to tell me his boss was coming in to cover for him and he was going to his apartment to sleep - that's how sick he is.
