Brian, I really appreciate your input and advice and have a couple of questions for you. First, do you think I've gone too far by having kissed the OM? Sometimes I think I have but other times I feel like this had to happen to me so that I would do something about my situation(sex starved). I have a really hard time communicating w/my H. He is also not very affectionate nor does he give compliments very often. the OM(which i work with) compliments me often and makes me feel valued as a friend. I have told him that nothing will ever happen as long as I'm married and he has been ok about this but I know if i jst said the word,he would go for it. I also feel like I'm being tested(like Job) Ive been a christian for approx.20yrs and have, though not perfect, been faithful to God and my H. I have also questioned whether I should run like Joseph from the pursuit of "the temptation", or not run like Jonah did and face this OM head on and let God do a work. I figure if God allowed this, He will give me the strength right? And I am not willing, like I've said in another post somewhere else, to trade my birthright (like Jacob) for a bowl of stew(sex). Trust me I have thought long and hard. I've cried and fought with myself and my thoughts. Also in keeping the marriage covenant(that if I never had sex again for the rest of my life,would I die, no!). But its something that I feel I need in my life and I feel like I'm pulling teeth trying to get my H to have sex. I'm tired of initiating it and tired of not being pursued by my H. Sorry this is so long but I just had to get this stuff off of my chest. I hope you respond. I know I need counseling and so does my husband but right now that's not going to happen so I'll rely on this site for my sanity. Thanks again.
