Journaling: the continuation of my saga

[PArob]

So not a whole heck of a lot has transpired on the R front....since my last post, I have been basically dark emotionally from W, keeping my distance and trying to get perspective on what the next step in my life is going to be. You know, I would give anything to go back about three years in my life and have the knowledge that I have now....well, I'm sure just about everyone feels this way.

So, Satruday night, my W is getting ready for work and we got into a discussion of sorts about everything and nothing at all (these are the worst conversations and really are so unproductive), but the gist of it was a rant on my part. Okay, not so productive, but damn, I really was a bit angry about the whole situation that has transpired over the course of one year. Well, as the conversation unfolds, I get hit with this statement from my W: "Everyone has turned their backs on me and now, your no exception." Needless to say, I was floored...granted, she understood that my distance was in direct reaction to her inability to commit and so forth, but still this really struck me. I, of course, reminded her that everything that was currently affecting her in her life was, on some level, her decision and that she alone held the key to making things right for herself.

So, this conversation really didn't get us anywhere further than any other had. Yesterday morning, my W brings up the topic of her eating disorder and once again ackowledges how much it has drained the life out of her. At this point, she recognized that she really needs serious help, perhaps more intense help than just regular therapy. she admitted that she is ready to take even the next step of very intensive help and has now expressed great interest in seeking inpatient therapy!

So today, she talked with her therapist and has got a referral to several in the area. Basically, it looks like we have some options and W has taken some VERY positive steps to moving forward. If all goes well, she could be well on the her road to recovery within the next week or two.

This is a major step for her and I'm so proud of her for doing it. I realize that, for the time being, our R must be put on hold, but this is so much more important than that at this point.

Well, I will provide more details as they become available, I just wanted to let everyone know that progress is being made.

Rob