Thanks GH, and yeah, it was a complete kick in the n*ts, but not nearly as devastating this time because of everything that we've been through. But, on that note, what kills me is that she still had a "need" for him. Now, I wonder to what extent it was need. I think on some level, she knew that he was totally infatuated with her, but after a time, she couldn't return that level of emotion to him but, at the same time, she didn't want to hurt him. I really don't know, and I get sick to my stomach when I think about it. But I also know that this is more or less "go" time for me and the ball is in my court...and she knows this. For one of the first times, she has ackowledged that she f*cked up badly. She's begging for another chance, but at this point, I don't know if I have it in me to give her that chance. Sad when six months ago I would have killed to have her say these things.
I guess I haven't been posting as much lately because I've been more focused on other things other than my R or her. For the time being, all that is at the forefront.
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
