Journaling: the continuation of my saga

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So, I had my first C session last night. I can't say whether it was a good experience or a bad experience, but at the very least, I got a lot of stuff out into the open. My C asked what my goals in coming to her were and I answered A) to help my wife be healthy and B) to save my marriage. I wonder if the two are mutually exclusive at this point.....

So a whole lot was discussed from my end, just basic background, some conversations we had, etc...but I don't feel as though much really came out of it. One positive thing that did come out of it was a suggestion by my C on how, at the very least, I may be able to get my W to see a dr. for a physical. Based on my description, the C was very concerned about my W's physical health and believes that she is bordeline critical at this point and its very important to at least have her physical health examined. So, she suggested that instead of having her family come to confront her, I use that as leverage to have my W see a docter. Something to the effect of telling my W that her whole family is planning to come down and do an intervention, but that I may be able to hold them off if she gets a physical sort of thing.

We got into some relathionship issues, but nothing too deep at this point. I guess I basically must just keep moving on as though things are fine and accept the emotional distance and everything that goes with it. Sometimes its so hard to separate the relationship issues from the other issues.

But today is a bright sunny day. I feel pretty good and I'm looking forward to a run outside at lunch time. This weekend we have to go to my nephew's graduation party in MD, so that should also be fun. Other than that, not much else planned for the weekend.

Hope everyone is doing well today.