I can hardly believe its Wednesday already! A pretty interesting week so far. Over the weekend, my W and I finally made it back to our hometown to visit and attend my cousin's wedding. This is the first time that my W has seen her mother, father and 4/5ths of her family since the new year, so its was interesting to see where things stood there. (more on this later)

The weekend was pretty uneventful, on Saturday we attended the wedding recpetion and it was nice for me to see some of my family that I haven't seen for a long time. W and I stayed a few hours and then went back to her parents' place early because we were taking the girls to an amusement park on Sunday. Sunday was a good day all in all. It was sorta rainy and cool, so the were no lines! We got to ride everything we wanted to mulitple times. The girls had such a good time and I made sure that I jumped in and laughed right along with them. I swear, somedays they are just the rock that I need to stablilize.

No R talk, which is just fine with me because I'm really just not in the mood to think about a lot of things. Looking objectively at my sitch, my W does seem to be doing so much better, but I approach everything with my guard up anymore. I wish I could drop that guard, but I guess that's something that comes with time. On a brighter note, I've noticed that my W has dropped a few ILY's here and there out of the blue. So nice to hear!

I made it back to the gym yesterday! I ran three miles (my pace has slowed some, but still managed to average high 8's) and felt incredible!!! I hurt a little bit today, but still managed 2.5 miles and some light weight training. I am convinced that it has provided me with a much needed stress reliever and I intend to keep it up!

On another note, my brother-in-law called me yesterday afternoon for a private talk. *sigh* Seems that he is pretty much aware of EVERYTHING that has happened between W and I in the past few years, but his main concern, as well as the family's, is my W's condition. Apparently they were completely taken aback by her appearance and her eating behaviors. Needless to say, they are worried sick about her. Basically, he asked whether I felt if it would be appropriate if they came down as a family and sort of pulled an intervention with my W. Now, I hesitate slightly about this, only because I fear, knowing her family, that it will turn into a battle of words and judgment, both of which are completely the wrong ways to attack any problem. I told him that I thought it would be a good idea, only if everyone could remember that love, patience and understanding were the goals and that they couldn't force anything. This is especially hard for some of her family members and I was informed that her other brother was thinking about writing some nasty letter or something. I really hope he reconsiders. But I do believe it is important that my W knows that her family A) knows whats going on and B) that they are concerned.

On a happier note, my W and I were talking last week about some places we have never been and would like to go. She's never been to NYC (although I have a few times when I was in the service, but I don't think we were taking in the historic sites at the time ). With this in mind, I got us a few tickets to go see Conan O'Brien taped live in NYC in July and plan to make a nice weekend out of it. I told my W about it today, and she seemed really surprised and excited. So I look forward to that!

I have my first counseling session tomorrow and I really, really hope that I like this person. I need to come up with some questions to guage whether or not this is the counselor for my sitch, so I guess I'll be doing some of that prior to my session. I'm a little bit scared, but hopeful that she can guide me to the right course of action for me and my W. Hopefully she can give me some insight on my W's other issues........

Well, that's about it for now. My sitch continues and I stive to attain my GAL goals. Hope everyone is having a good day.

"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu