Thanks on a personal note for your help earlier today.
As for your sitch, I think it is REALLY scary how similar our lives are, down the the fact that you went to a safari park on Sunday and I went to Animal Kingdom at Disney. Wow.
I think you know we are in similar places in our sitches and have similar frustrations. That said, have you looked into that book I am reading, Passionate Marriage? It may help you understand more about how to be your own person within the "confines" of your marriage. I know you are looking to expand your reading beyond self-help but maybe give this one a go before you do that.
As for your slip up...did I mention that our lives mirror each other? You know I slipped up around the same time. The main thing is that you recongized your error and moved on from it. It wasn't too long ago that you would not have been able to do that.
Just keep in mind that this will take even more time than you think, or want. BTW, hows the therapist hunt going?