I'm not sure who is out there, but any advice would be greatly appreciated. I'll start with a little bit of background information. I've been married for close to 8 years/no kids yet. I'm embaressed to say that I'm the cheater and not the cheated. My guilt overwhelmed me and I told my wife in January what happened. I was petrified to tell her for a number of reasons, but I couldn't live with myself and I had to do it regardless of the consequences. When I told her I fully expected her to be very angry (she was), and I pretty much knew that my marriage would be over. However, that didn't happen. In fact, my wife has been nicer to me over the last few months than at any point in our marriage. Unfortunately, her reaction has created new issues that I wasn't ready to deal with. Our relationship hasn't been all bad, but we had a number of issues in our marriage. Those issues led to the affair (still no excuse for what I did), and also led me to a point where I don't feel the same way about her that she feels about me. I felt like a coward and I was ready to tell her and face the music. I figured whatever I suffered would be well deserved, but I also expected that I would face the consequences of my actions, and then have the opportunity to start over. Of course there is so much more to the story, but at this point I feel very confused.
