Oh, good God, I had to pull my thread out of oblivion. Is it somehow wrong to miss the days when I posted a jillion times a day and would hit refresh a bunch of times in the hopes that someone had posted on my thread?
I've been meaning to post for weeks...the 4th anniversary of DDay has come and gone and amazingly enough, I didn't even remember it was DDay until the morning OF! In years past I had fretted and planned and pined. Gosh, am I getting forgetful?
Things here are good. Charlotte is 8 months old and gorgeous and sweet (tho' what is up with the crabbies of late? I think it's because she's dying to MOVE and all she can do is crawl backwards!). Things with h are amazingly good...we're coming out of the new baby haze and enjoying her and each other a great deal. So much of it is how terrific he's been...playing with her, taking on all of the household duties (THAT was the deal when we agreed that I would be the one to get up with her at night). I consider myself a very lucky woman.
I listened to the KLA tapes a few weeks ago and Men are from mars....too. A good reminder to get my "appreciation" self out of the closet and the "no ASSumptions" self too while I was at it.
I miss you guys. I miss posting and knowing what's going on and feeling as though I "get" it and that I know what's going on with everyone. I picture myself back here some day...because I can be of help maybe or for the comraderie (sp?) or whatever.
h is out with his work friends tonight. There was a time when that would have freaked me out completely. Part of me is so much more trusting now and part of me just simply knows that I'm not responsible for his fidelity. I know that there will be younger, thinner women there tonight ( ) and it's not that I don't care but I know I can't control it...but there's a part of me that wonders "will I think back on this time 5 years from now and see myself as a fool???".
Oh, whatever.
Come visit! Say hi even though I'm a lame excuse for a poster of late.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
) and it's not that I don't care but I know I can't control it...but there's a part of me that wonders "will I think back on this time 5 years from now and see myself as a fool???".
