F4W: I'm with Cobra on this. You are really stuck on predicting what she will say or do, and interpreting her actions and words. A person can go crazy with indecision if they are constantly analyzing their distant spouse. BTDT.
And I have to comment on your tagline: "Through honest giving of my love I will recieve 10 fold in return." What if you don't? Unless you're speaking about that warm feeling you get when you give with absolutely no expectation of any response from the object of your love, which some people get from their faith in God, I think this statement is flawed. Human nature is such that, if we don't get some sort of positive response from our actions, we'll eventually stop. If we honestly give our love to someone who just takes and takes and is basically unaffected by our honest giving of love, where is the tenfold return? Is it in the feeling of superiority we have when we can tell our friends and family, "I gave and gave and she was cold as ice"?
I think a more accurate statement might be, "through honest giving of my love, I may receive tenfold in return, or I may end up with nothing, save for the knowledge of who is truly able to love me in return."
