The thing was, I didn't know what I wanted. How do you answer a question when you don't know the answer. I know I put my H through hell. One minute I wanted to be single. The next I would get so sad and wanted to make our R work any way possible. I knew I still loved my H though I didn't act like it. Sometimes I felt like my head would explode with all the contradictory thoughts racing through my head!
That is a perfect example of what happens when one is undifferentiated and unable to hold onto oneself. BTDT.
