Motivated by Happy Giant's Post

[Fighting4Wife]

Lillie,

I wont mention the fact that I got a large blizzard. OOPS I did.

AHHHHHH to the PITA remark.

The praying is something I do daily, OK not daily but very often. I find that it does calm my soul, for no other reason that God has a plan, and I cannot change what that plan is. Only make the best of that plan.

The response thing is a good idea and I have been trying to find more ways to be loving. In the truest form, nothing physical, just the inner giving you are mentioning. I believe that this will be more successful with the knowledge of the inner workings and bad habits I have been developing.

I will go on record saying this. The knowledge I am gaining is that which I most likely already knew but could not admit to becuase of the pain I lept bringing to myself.

The key here, as I see it, is not to lower the shield when doing it. By that do not allow rejection or her choice in avoidance or jabs create damge to me. Those are choices she makes and I have the choice to allow them to hurt more than they should or actually forgive her in my heart and mind and know I am better than that. Not aloof or arrogant, just the belief I am more than that and a good man.

Thanks Lillie. Go to bed.

PS my stomach hurts form that sinful ice cream!