Hi all, I have been off for awhile. (actually, I do come here to catch up on people but I haven't posted much).
I am still struggling with the fact that H and I, while our relationship and friendship are improving tremendously, have no physical relationship.
It is also hard for me because he works with OW and I know that now and again they talk on the cell phone (yes, I admit I do occassionally snoop) - but this is not to start any confrontations but to protect my heart. He is giving me all the signs that the A is over and he has recommitted to our M but I must protect myself, therefore I snoop. I cannot go thru that bomb all over again nor do I want to feel like the idiot wife who closes her eyes to what her H is actually doing. I don't care if they are just talking about work - it bothers me, alot! They shouldn't be talking at all as far as I'm concerned. Of course, I don't feel I can say this to H as I don't want to appear controlling or giving ultimatums. So, I sit here wonder what the heck is going on with us and if I am just a fool.
I don't want to project onto him (as he has done to me in the past), I know I need to deal with my emotions and not react to them. Any more advice would really be helpful to me. Thanks!
