Ok, good afternoon and evening. Don't have much time to post, kids are having friends sleep over.... Wrote this letter to H (we leave notes for eachother in the morning as he leaves for work before I get up)
"Good Morning! Remember that can't wait to do it feeling?" Let's recapture it! I apologize for the way I have treated you. My reasons for passing on passion are varied: I'm tired, I'm fat, I'm hungry, I'm full, I didn't shave, I'm fat. I think you are the most attractive person I know. I want to hold your hand, I want to snuggle on the couch, I want to kiss you, I want to be with you! Instead of mind reading, I just thought I would let you know. No pressure, you do what you need. I love you."
Who knows, this could send him over the edge. At this point I don't care. I NEED to be happy. I cannot live in limbo any longer. Even if he tells me that he agrees but is not ready yet for intimacy, at least I know where I stand. Wish me luck!!!
