Quote: You are right this situation is not fair to either of us.
I really was not asking him to change. I was asking him to give me room so I could find a emotional connection with him so we can get our relationship on the right track. Something obviously he is not to concerned about. But he does think are relationship is fine as a whole except for lack of sex.
This is the longest we have ever went without sex. But like I said I am no longer interested in hollow meaningless sex.
I made a boundry of I do not want shallow sex anymore. I want a relationship that warrents emotional sex. H does not care to step within that boundry.
Oh, I so understand this sentiment it takes the wind right out of me. I know it, lived it... went down the road you are considering because of it. The only thing I can say about the 'angry' sex, the 'empty sex' you talk about is... it GOT that way because I allowed it, and I just didn't believe enough in myself to stop it... was certain that is was all my fault, believed every single word he was saying to me... "I'm not this, I'm not that... if you would just do x, y, z, everything would be better...."
God ... .... .... I can't even begin to tell you the awful memories and feelings that brings back to me. I guess Happy's posts don't bother me as much as you because you are still in the middle of it yourself, and I am not.
But what I will suggest to you is... try not to leave in anger. What is crtiical for YOU at this point is to believe in yourself, to know who you are and what you want... to not view this as an escape.
I don't know if I should be giving any advice to you, for when you get to this place, it is darn near impossible to consider any other avenue. I'm not sure that is a bad thing, so don't think that's what I am saying. I also do not want to project my own experiences. You will find your way.
If you ever want to talk, my email is corri@ftio.com. Hang in there. Believe in yourself.
