Spring the time for Change.

[Stigmata]

I took that and ran with it. I gave him full access to my post here on this board I encouraged him to read them on more days then one. He still did not understand what I was saying. Sadly my H does not seem to understand me verbally or in written form.

- I understand. This and his wonering why you didn't really miss him while you were gone shows me evidence of that old but true cliche that standing too close to a situation doesn't allow (him) to see it as an whole.

Put it all down on paper

I think I am going to write a book of my life lol. I will give him the first copy

- No doubt an best seller. Better sign some copies for your BB buds...although that would be kinda odd with handles. (Chrome's W) "Ummm, "To: Chromosphere, signed, Chrissy. who the heck is Chromosphere? An sci fi evil genius character in her book?"

...but about his reading the threads...he may think computer forums are a bunch of nonsense from self-help nuts
Still write your thoughts on paper and put it in an envelope if you are going off to find yourself for a bit. Seeing your handwriting and hearing your voice in the words and having it physically in his hand is much more powerful than posts on an forum. But I know you know that.

Work on you,
Chrissy. Gotta get to feeling good about yourself before you can give that love to anyone else...the old oxygen mask on your own face plane thing first before assisting other passengers kwim?

-Stigmata-