You and your H may ride off into the sunset in the happy haze of a reinvigorated R. Can you envision that
Hope for it yes picture it no.
It has only been a few days since H's and my conversation. And already he is pushing and being nasty. Like every word spoke was all part of some game.
When he asked how long I was going to act like this I went numb. For two days I have been continually petted and this morning he asked me if I wanted to have sex.
Okay what part of I will not want to have sex until we improve our relationship and this is gonna take time. Was not clear? What part of I need to worry about me right now and my depression and not be pushed was not clear? What part of I know that it is not fair but it is what I need right now was not clear?
I thought it was all clear I thought for once he was listening to me. And was willing to do what was needed to work on us. Nope big resonding no!
Okay so the me sleeping in just my undies has got to go. Gonna have to dress for sleep from here on out. Dam pushing me a little further into the LD behavior instead of my behavior. I guess I will also need to start edge hugging again.
Or I can just say fust it and have sex with him when he bugs me again tonight since nothing is going to change. The only thing he is concentrating on is getting me to have sex not letting me get to a place where I want/can have good meaningful sex. So be it if that is all he wants he can have hollow sex served up right until I meet with a lawyer about a legal seperation and have him served with the papers. I said I was done with this marriage how it is. But I really see no changing it. I said that I am tired of being over looked but my H cannot see me in plan sight that would take him opening his eyes. So Karen to answer your question am I done. The answer will be yes I am done probably by tonight.
