Today is our wedding anniversary and it should be a happy day, but I am miserable.
About four weeks ago my husband confessed to cheating on me. It happened ONLY two weeks after my father's funeral, when I needed him the most.
He is begging me for forgivenss and wants me to stay if I can. I don't know what to do!
We had a good marriage. We had love, trust, respect. We did not drift apart one from another. I feel like the rug was pulled from under me. When I was getting married I was getting married for life. I had an example of my parents who were married for over 50 years. I knew that we would have to make adjustments and it is not going to be easy at times, but I knew that I was not going to be a woman who would ever say: "I was cheated on."
I feel anger, hurt, shame, helplessness. I loved him so much that this pain is unbearable. I am still at a point where I cannot even make a decision whether to stay or go. I am in a stupor like state and don't know what to do. I want to leave, but can't make myself yet, because I had not planned my life to be this way.
