My reply just got Lost in Space. You expressed my feelings exactly when you said the the rare act of kindess hurts more than it feels good.
I do not think that H feels a "terrible weight". I think that if MCLers felt these things, they would want to kill themselves for all the pain they caused, especially for the people who loved them.
I picture H like a balloon bouncing along in the breeze, happy, not feeling much of anything.
My sons do tell me that I am important to them. That feels good to hear. But in my mind, "the inlaws seem to have more to give." And that makes me feel sad.
Thanks for your insights.
NLF
You must grow in patience when you meet with great wrongs, and they will then be powerless to vex your mind. ---Leonardo da Vinci
