Journaling

I do not know what would make me feel "better", h acting like a big jerk so that I can vent or H doing something nice and me having to give him the credit he deserves.

H, per our agreement at the last 4 way mtg, sent my mom a generous check for all her "help" with getting the house ready for market and then helping get rid of our unwanted accumlated junk and helping me pack and move.

My mom, who has been disgusted with h for walking out on me, was surprised and touched by the check and the note he wrote. In the note he recognized that she was always a help to us over the years, and said that he appreciated her efforts.

It was nice that he did this. However, right now so close to our D day, it is hard on me to see this glimmer of the person he used to be. It's like everything he said, the ILYBNILWY, is the truth, that he's not in MLC, this is a well thought out plan that will lead him to happiness for the rest of his life. If that is true, then I am someone that needed to be ejected from his life for him to be happy.

I have not read of other MLCers in replay who have shown this "decent behavior" element. I read about the OWs, the extravagent spending. H does not seem to fit the mold. and when he doesn't, I feel sad for all that is lost for me and my family.

nlf


You must grow in patience when you meet with great wrongs, and they will then be powerless to vex your mind. ---Leonardo da Vinci

Me:63 H:66
M:36 yrs
MLC, OW
Bomb: 1-2005
D: 6-2006