Well good grief! If I ever needed confirmation that I am the "bad girl" among us, this would be the thread to give it to me. H and I never had problems in this area...but hey with the laundry list of other problems, I guess it's a blessing we did ANYTHING right!
COG, I will speak honestly to you because you wouldn't expect anything less from me. Please know I do not mean any disrespect for your wife with what I am about to say...
I felt many months ago that your growth had far surpassed that of your wife. I see her as an ice princess and not grateful in her heart for all that God has restored. I am not saying that she should lay down to show you her gratitude. Not at all, that would only make her feel worse, and no one wants that for her. That being said, she has to walk this out for herself, I think. But she may never... I am praying that she will though because you deserve to love and be loved in every way. You are not expected to settle. But you must also realize this is not just her demon. See, it is your old "friend"...hear what I am saying...I know the battles of your past...the wolf is at your door and for now, you are strong enough to step over him but you must remain vigilant. This is temptation. Not to cheat, we know you won't go there. I think you hear me.
COG, you can analyze your wife til the cows come home, but until she meets herself and her issues face to face, you are standing on the sidelines, fighting only to save yourself.
Make no mistake, you're still fair game. The enemy comes in through any avenue he can. He knows no bounds. He'll even use your wife.
That's all I can contribute, if it's anything at all. But you have my prayers, as does your wife.
Blessings, Amy
By the way, Frank might be able to offer you a little insight into this...
