COG
You really have a great atttitude.
I am glad you are happy and that you can be patient.

It wasn't until I stopped being so selfish and began to understand what sex really meant to my Husband that things really began to change in that area.

I think that my rejection of him caused alot of harm. I thought that to a man it was just a physical release, I had no clue that as a man it is also an expression of love, and that it really makes him feel good in the sense that he is showing love to his wife, it is another way of expressing love.

It was so hard to step out of the box I had put myself in and make myself vulnerable.
To allow myself to enjoy sex again with him and actually understand what sex meant to my Husband.

In many ways it showed him how much I loved him and I am so happy that I took that plunge.
We are now able to actually talk about sex and it has actually become really fun,

But it was a lot of hard work to get there.

Hang in there COG, maybe she may be your Christmas gift and you will get to unwrap her

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.