New to Piecing

[COG]

I was thinking about what my W has asked of me, what she wants from me right now.
1) Patience - I think I'm doing pretty good with that, W even says so.
2) Have no Expectations - That's my struggle. I expect certain things from her, sex being one of them. I mean, should'nt a H expect a little sex in a M. Is'nt it a God given right? I'll answer that myself.

In a Godly M, I think yes. However, our M was not Godly, I was not Godly, not even close. The pain that I caused my W may have caused irreprable damage. Like if an arm is cut off, a new one does'nt grow, unless your a lizard or something. Anyway, even if it's not all the way cut off, just damaged, the scar, and the memory of the pain remain. So in that case, I don't believe I have the right to expect it, not after the things I did, and did'nt do that hurt her.

So, at W's request, I think I need to let go my expectations of physical intimacy. At least for now.

3)Enjoy the great R we have right now - I need to get better at that. I need to be joyful, and let the real COG shine through. The happy COG, the enthusiastic, and funny COG. The wild and crazy COG. Definately not needy, worried, wimpy, self pitying COG.

Let the chips fall where they may.

God Bless,

COG