New to Piecing

[COG]

Journaling: W and I keep grinding in the right direction. The last week or two have been rough. She's been a bit tired and cranky. I loose patience and wonder what's happening. Things came to a head two nights ago.

I told her I was'nt happy about things. The lack of attention, physical intimacy and I was wondering if she was "checking out". It was more venting than anything else. So, she just did some venting of her own in return. It was'nt wise of me to bring it all up at 10:00PM bedtime. It did'nt go well, lost some yardage.

However, after two days of us being downers for each other, I fought hard and changed up my attitude. We had a nice long talk this morning. (Mornings, when kids are in school, are much better times to discuss things)We talked about how neither of us is completely happy with things, and that it was much harder than we thought it would be. We also both agreed that we if we can just hang on, we may end up with an incredibly beautiful M. It's definately what BOTH of us want. Anyway, we talked about how far we have come. There have been some truly miraculous healings between us. We ended the convo on a very positive, note. I think our 7 day funk is over.

Some notes to remember:

1) Discuss issues in the morning, after kid's are gone to school. Definately not at bedtime. "I have that habit because it tends to be the only quiet time we have together". Gotta work at that one.

2) The last two days I've been saying "today is a brand new day"! I say it with enthusiasm! My W likes that, she said so. I'm going to stick with that.

3) Count my blessings. W and I have come SOOOO far. It is truly miraculous how far we've come. I'm going to start a list of the good things, the positive growth we've made.

There's one we talked about this morning. The two of us were like oil and water in the kitchen. We got to the point where we could'nt even be in there together. It was so frustrating because I enjoy cooking, but I was a jerk about it. Anyway, I realized this morning how that has completely reversed. Now we are quite comfortable in there together, and we actually make a great team. That's not a baby step, that was a giant step. If we can accomplish that, then we can darn sure figure out how to get our sex life fired up.

5) We also realized how blessed we are to be able to have an open and honest convo with each other. Allowing each other to be who we are, and feel how we feel. Unconditional, supportive, and positive.

Thanks God!

Love,

COG