Amy,
Several years ago when I was in a dark and ugly place, "the dark night of the soul", I made a promise to God that if He showed me the way into the light, if he saved me, then I would do everything I could to help guide others through the darkness. It warms my heart that I've actually been able to help one of His children.

Your story has also been an inspiration to me. I feel the Holy Spirit in all of your last six posts or so. The classic peeling of the onion. I've heard that saying many times but I've never experienced it quite so vividly as what you've just come through. I'm honored and blessed to have been able to experience that. It's a deeply spiritual transformation that's happened in you.

Now be prepared because as you come out of the darkness, sometimes you think you're totally out, and then you fall back in. That's completely normal you may ebb and flow for awhile. The dark night that you've traveled through, and are still probably in is a spiritual calling. That's why you transformed when you finally yeilded everything to God. I don't know why or how I'm saying this it's just gushing out. So hopefully it's the HS talking.

God loves you AmyC and He'll always be close to you. He's going to use you for great things. It's not about your M, it's about your soul, eternity with you Father in heaven. Our time here on earth is but a drop in the bucket compared to eternity in heaven. Consider yourself lucky and blessed to be a chosen one. A daughter who's leading God's children through the dark night.

You are an awesome and gifted woman. I can't wait to see where you go from here. God Bless You!

Love,

COG


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