New to Piecing

[COG]

Spike,

Are you ever worried that she will do this to you again and leave again??

Honestly, I don't worry about that AT ALL! I've spent the last four years becoming healthy; spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I've been to hell and back and I'll not go there again. If she leaves me again, then so be it! I'll let her go, still love her, and be her friend.

It's not my job to worry, it's my job to LIVE! Fear is a little thought planted by the devil. It's a great tool that scum sucking dog uses to anchor us down, so we don't move forward. Just take life one day at a time, live in reality, celebrate every moment you have.

You can build yourself a garage sized box to move into. Never let anyone in, and never go out for fear of being injured. You can probably survive that way your whole life, but you'll never have lived. Better to face the fire, stick your neck out, take a chance, let yourself be vulnerable. Sure you'll take your lick's, but you'll not look back on your life and wish you'd had more courage.

Once in awhile I'll gently tell my W that it's OK if she ever finds someone else. That she deserves to be IL, happy, etc. That I let her down and I'll always be sorry. She know's it's OK whatever happens. I know it'll be OK too, and THAT'S the most important thing.

God Bless,

COG