Hey there! glad to see you here. I totally understand you, there come times when I say the exact thing to myself "why am I waiting for this person to love me when I could be loved by someone else?" We both have fought too hard to let go of the price now, it is at our grasp. I think it has to do w/the fact that in our battle to get our Ss back we've put our feelings in the back burner and now our hurt comes out, all those feelings we witheld are coming out in a torrent and we want to be satisfied.
It almost feels like being rejected, but for now our Ss aren't ready, when they were away they made themselves forget how much they loved us and all the good times they had with us. So it's back to square one, I know its frustrating, but it seems your W is pretty close, if there is some intimacy and contact I think you guys are in the right track, dont' despair now!
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
