I'm so sorry BP... I wish I were there to give you a hug. I used to cry myself sick before I learned the hard way. That's not to say I don't cry anymore... I do, but it's a lot less frequent... and never in front of my H!

Find your strength... what makes you strong, determined. Able to handle anything! I found mine in God. Whenever I start to feel overwhelmed or obsessed (where is he? what is he doing? etc.) I just start repeating... God is my Strength... over and over... as many times as it takes! It really works for me. Calms me down and makes me stronger! And I just KNOW that everything is going to be fine... either way! What is your strength?

LOL and I know what you mean about 'hormone land'... I can always tell when that's clouding things!

Remember: Circumstances are temporary but Character will last forever!

Whatever!