GH, what you wrote Frank is what I needed to hear today. Frank, I'm in the same stage you are in. I feel each day I wake up and want to just be me--it's a beautiful day and life is too short. Then H comes in the house and I feel like a huge weight is on my neck and I can't breathe and the pain of the past floods in. For so long I was good at detaching and working on me, and now it's time to face the music of the past, but H is afraid to talk, and I am sick and tired of being the one to do all the work of pushing through the crap, now that is not even mine.
GH, thank you for the words. Today is a beautiful day here, a Friday, I had a great workout and feel great. Moments of sadness, but all in all, I am through wasting time on the pain of a past that I did not create....I cannot. I am going to spend today being ME.
I trust there will come a time when H and I are BOTH ready to face the past, the pain and work through it to a better M. Until then, we will carefully enjoy the present.
Thank you so much for your wise words. I've been feeling so weak and lost lately. Sorry for posting this on your thread Frank.
