Well, she came back from her friends somewhat disconnected. D15 is having Boyfriend issues too so it's been a stressful evening. W did come and sit with me to watch TV for a little while, even massaged my shoulders for me. She put her head on my lap and I brushed her hair.
It was getting late and I said we should go to bed. So she got up and I did too. She went to go brush her teeth and get ready for bed, and rather than 'linger' like I have been doing the past few nites, hoping for a hug or kiss, I just went to my room and stayed there.
I was secretly hoping she would come and find me to say goodnite, but she didn't. That's what makes this so much fun - knowing that she doesn't have enough feelings for me to bother to find me even to say GOODNITE.
These are of course the parts we find so ridiculous - that we're living with a 'person' used to really love us, and now they can barely scrape together some 'I care' feelings.
Well, monday we're leaving for a 3 day trip. I'm not setting any expectations other than since we will be with the kids all the time, she will keep her distance. The kids and I will have fun so that is my plan. Just have fun.
I sure wish W would wake up those feelings, or get out. This sure doesn't seem like a real 'trying' to me. Well, at least she's stuck with me for the next 3 days so she'll see how much fun I can be.
