Quote: As i type this I'm having a huge adrrenaline rush.
Is that good or bad?
Quote: The thing about this OM is that she doesn't give a clear picture of what their R is. She says that they are "dating". She says that they haven't had sex. But then when I make an asumption about it she says it's not what you think.
My W said the same thing. It may or may not be true but you have to try not to dwell on it.
Quote: And she can't figure out why I get mad sometimes. Im actually haven't been to the house in weeks cause I don't want to find any triggers for my anger.
She's in her own world right now and THINKs she can manage your emotions by massaging you and telling you what she thinks you want to hear, true or untrue. Try to pay her little attention. I know that is hard as hell, but you eventually will have to do it anyway, why not start now.
Quote: It just seems really hopeless that I can win her back with him "living my life"
I get this. I think you just need to swallow hard and realize that YOU are the one with the history, good, bad and otherwise with your W and you DO have redeeming qualities, with more added each day (lol). You ARE worth her attention and no matter what he does or says, he is NOT you. That is a GOOD thing because she married YOU, the man she loved and the man YOU truly are. Just start being him and try to put this other stuff aside.
I know, it's hard, but you have little choice right now, or at least one that is as likely to give you happiness.
