You are right, I don't really hate dbing. I hate the situaition I've created and I hate feeling helpless. I do hate not knowing what she is doing. It's not really I need to know what she is doing, it's the thought of what she could be doing.
I am just frustrated right now, I see no end in site and that scares me. I know that I can live without her I just don't want to. Thank you for your response GH.
Right now it's taking everything I have not to call her and "talk this out". It's almost time to go to work so that should at least occupy my time, probably not my mind but it will keep me busy.
