I think I just need to vent a little bit. The amount of time I see my W has reduced dramatically. Now it's maybe 5 minutes just to exchange the kids. The past few days I've tried to pack as much "sunshine" into that 5 minutes as possible. Small compliments, a little chit chat, maybe a little flirting.
I've done a good job of putting on the front to her, that I'm handling the situation much better, but on the inside I feel like I'm going to explode (at least right now). This is the first time I've been this worked up in maybe a week. I want to call her, or text her or something...but I'm not going to. She has to travel a bit from job to job today, hopefully she'll make the effort to call me...but I'm not going to hold my breath waiting for her.
Going to work has been a mixed blessing. On one hand it takes up a lot of my time and keeps me from contacting her. On the other hand, I spend 10 hours a day alone with my thoughts and she clearly dominates those right now.
I've been on this roller coaster ride long enough now to know that this feeling will pass in time, I just have to wait it out.
