Today was the first day that I felt like I have really started to DB. I feel pretty good right now.
I had mentioned that I arranged for my parents to take the kids after school for the rest of the week so that I could avoid my wife and try to withdraw from her a bit. Well I changed my mind and went and got the kids. Last night I decided this is it...now or never. So I got the kids figuring I'd begin to let her see my changes. By the way I watch the kids at my parents...kinda nuetral ground...for now.
So she was on her way to pick the kids up and called me to let me know that she had to stop of at the store and then would be right there. I told her okay no problem just as long as I am back to XXXX by 8:00. She said you will be and we said good bye. When she got there I kinda hurried the kids together and tried to push the situation along, normally I would kinda try to hold her up so I could talk. She noticed this right away and said something to the affect of "wow, it must be really important if your're pushing us out of here this fast." I simply told her I have to be somewhere at 8:00 (truth is I'm a shameless Survivor nut and idn't want to miss the beginning). As she left she smiled waved and said have fun.
Another bright spot in our very brief exchange...today I got braces (one of my self improvements). I showed them to her and she joked a bit but then said she thinks they are cute, she flirted a bit and I left.
I know these are only baby steps and don't mean alot at this point but it'll get me through the night. The real challenge for me is not backsliding from here. Typically I would take this small positive and run with it...this time I'm going to sit back, wait, and then build on it.
