Can you catch us up on exactly where thing stand right now? It would help so I could offer more specific help.
Anyway, who started the R talk? Just wondering.
This may sound harsh, but it IS over, assuming by IT you mean your old M. The problem is that you are still wrapped up in the R and what may or may not be. When you truly get to the point where you are DBing well and detaching, you will understand that fear of losing your M is misplaced because what you are afraid of losing is already gone.
You W will have to choose to return to you and the best thing you can do to help that happen is to be who you want to be and do it for you. If I sound like a broken record, I am sorry.
