Thank you for your response. I am very ashamed that I have allowed myself to act this way. I know that I have a huge struggle ahead of me and last weeks episode only made it worse. I have taken counseling...wasn't hapypy with the direction she(the shrink) wanted to go. i have contacted someone else I just haven't pulled the trigger and made the appointment. I love my W more than I ever thought I could. I just hope it's not to late to win her back.
My problem is trying to avoid contact with her. I know to feel safe that she needs me to keep a safe distance, it just rips my heart out to stay away. I gave her all the house keys in an attempt to make her feel safer. I wish there were more activ things I could do. I created this problem but feel helpless to fix it.
