W31, OM20, part II

[RBinBR]

Today was Mother's Day at D4's preschool. She talked all evening about how much fun she had with Mommy and how much she loves her and how much Mommy liked the present she made for her at school.

Part of me wanted to gag, since W has averaged spending 2.5 hours a week (at most) with D since she walked/got kicked out on Jan 8 ... W doesn't deserve the amazing love that D has for her.

But she does have it, and she always will. So, I've been thinking that I owe it to D to DB some more.

This should be fun -- trying to win the love of someone I don't think I want, who knows that I don't want her anymore because I've told her ... all done for the faint possibility that W will change dramaticaly after ending it with the OM. (Is my sitch weird or what?)

In any event, why not? As I've already said, I'm not interested in dating in the forseeable future anyway. What else am I going to do with my time?

I've decided to approach this as a personal challenge or a game. Since I don't really want her anyway (at least as she is), I won't have much emotionally invested in my efforts. Theoretically, I should now be able to DB in extraordinary fashion, since I have nothing to lose.

We'll see. As I said, this should be fun.