W31, OM20, part II

[RBinBR]

Today, the feeling that my M is over has me depressed and bitter (a nasty cold might also have something to do with this). I took all the pictures of me and her off the walls and put them away. W came by tonight to spend time with D, and I didn't say anything to her. I really couldn't even stand to be in the same room with her.

The other part of the equation is that every time I look into my daughter's eyes, I know I can't go through with filing for divorce. For her sake, I feel that I'm going to have to wait until W can file in Jan 2008, unless she and the OM have a kid or something {shudder}. My D loves her mommy so much, and, for her sake, I don't think I could end our M so long as there exists a glimmer of hope that my W could end it with the OM and change. So now I'm the one who feels trapped in a marriage I don't want.

Thanks for reading and pray excuse my pity party ... I'll feel better tomorrow.