Hi RB my friend, You have been a great source of hope and encouragement to me, and I hope I can be one for you now. I know you are hurting. I know that everything that you have been through, everything you have patiently dealt with, is now bubbling up in intolerable anger and dissapointment right now. You can DB and still get a D if you need to. But do not let your anger run you. Pray for forgiveness and compassion in your heart, and let us help. Your W is a mess. You can do better (with her or without her - your choice), but it starts with you. Otherwise you will recreate a similar future with a different face to look at, becuase you will still be there. I believe you are on the verge of a major breakthrough, inside of yourself. Patience and compassion will lead you there, even now. Please take a deep breath and do something really good for you today. I believe you need to forgive yourself for the choices you have made. Look inside, and do not blame your W for all of this pain. I know you want it to end. Your life will get better, but coming from the inside out. we are with you RB. Please write more, get it all out here.
PositivelyListening ************************************** When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller
