W31, OM20, part II

[RBinBR]

Well, here I am posting after all! I'm now in a place with internet access and I thought I'd say hi.

I just spent two days on the beach in Grand Isle, LA and got myself a little tan. I managed to burn the tops of my feet fairly well -- didn't put sunblock there, I guess.

Anyway, I feel pretty good. Two days of complete separation plus some ocean waves have definitely helped with PMA and detachment.

I got some peace on how to handle some things (boundaries for if and when W is ready to reestablish a R). I also got convicted to go visit my mother, whom I have seen only once, briefly, in the last six years (at my grandfather's funeral). She basically disowned me when I got married, but I've decided that it's time to discuss some things with her. I don't expect a pleasant conversation but there are some things I need to say. I'm planning to go on Tuesday, so I'll let you know what happens.

While I was down in Grand Isle, I actually saw an old flame, but I didn't take my sunglasses off and I don't think she recognized me. I got away from her as soon as I could. It's weird, but I'm now much more determined to be faithful to my W than I ever was before, and I'm now taking the Bible seriously when it says to flee temptation. I'll open myself up for other women if and only if there is a D and it becomes final. Until then, I'm going to keep my heart pure.