I have always.. ALWAYS been full of hope. But for the first time, now that I am starting to see her real issues with the marriage, that hope is strating fall apart. Slowly get's dwindled away.
To me, marriage counseling is a great way to work thorugh this, but as I have mentioned before, she will not go. Flat out refuses to have anything to do with it.
I have been contemplating doing something drastic... something big.. to try to get her into counseling, but I don't know what that would be yet...
With as low as her self esteem is, if I went to drastic I fear she'd just say "fine, see, I told you you'd leave me one day, everyone else has." and be done with it and just go into self pity mode.
The only way counseling would work is if she went in WANTING to be there and desiring help from someone and I just don't know what it would take to get her to that point.. of actually WANTING help...
