Perhaps I haven't been clear. I do not want to be the main initiator of sex in my M and by his actions I don't believe my H wants me to be either. When I initiate too much I don't enjoy it as much. When I initiate too much H feels pressured and isn't present during sex even though he rarely turns me down. To be authentic I want to have sex with someone who wants to have sex with me. Being authentic then means that when I want sex but initiated the time before..............what?
