Lil, I am leaving tomorrow for a few days ( going to Puerto Rico with the family) so I can't get into a new thread now, but thanks for asking about me. H and I are in " working together" mode...major changes have been his starting his own therapy and being more tuned in to my general state of being. We have figured out that I have a mood disorder ( I have of course known this but he now seems clued in) and that he has ADD and an anxiety disorder. We're playing around with nutritional supplements and talking a lot about quality of life stuff.
Sexually, I am not as nearly revved up as I was 2 yrs ago when I joined the board. I kind of miss that part of myself...even my fantasy life is not what it was. The drama has been replaced with calmness. H and I make sure to have some sort of emotional/sexual bonding every nite; I leave it up to him as to how far he wants to take it. I seem to be more patient and allow him time to become aroused from the connection. It's relaxed and safe...I'd like to see him take some more risk, but I am just so happy to have this level of comfort that I just leave it alone.
I am having a little pre-trip anxiety ( which is probably why I am on the board a lot today). I had asked him a few months ago to plan a little family escape...this is usually my forte, being the organizer...but this time he's in control of the details. He just called to ask me what time we are leaving and I got a little pissy with that...told him he can look it up when he comes home( siad in a nice way... I am just plain nicer). I have taken care of my end...the kids' packing, the dog, etc...sheesh!
We have done a lot of talking about the past, in particular, my depression, how I went it alone, how he never knew I went for help, was on meds, etc., that I felt I didn't have his support. I know he feels bad about this and has told me over and over that I should have explained it more to him ( thus my comments to HP on her thread).
I will post more next week...have a good one, all!
