I'm so depressed today! I don't know what to do or where to turn! After two LONG talks with my mother . . . things seem so hopeless. She tells me that she thinks I "think crazy" and I don't see anything the way normal people do. She's been on me my whole life about things like this , could it be because I'm adopted and didn't adopt her way of thinking or should I really believe that I am just off. She says I should a therapist. I'm so hurt and upset. . . maybe she's right but I didn't think it was because I was nuts. She thinks that my H isn't being fair to me. . . she thinks he's being childish and not acting the way he should (he's 22 so I doubt MLC by the by ) She says that when sees that his pregnant wife who watchs his 19 month old daughter 24 - 7 is at her wits end and sooo stressed out that he should step up and be a man and take over the responsibility of somethings.

I don't know what to do on my own . . . my mom says they may have to take me to the hospital and I may have to deliver by myself . . I wish I could just refuse but i know that's impossible. It's almost too over whelming for me to think about .

I'm so frustraighted with my H and I wish he'd make up his mind . . . because I can't make up mine. . . I think that's probably wrong. I just feel like I can't stay here . . my parents will be back in a month and I feel like I have to be gone because we'll only fight constantly.
I don't have any good friends . . not that I feel like I can open all the way up . . only my H . . . I tried opening up to my mom and it's only gotten me more confused and lost. . . I want to call my H and talk but I know I can't . . so what now?