NM, Hang in there. Reading your posts, I can really feel your frustration. I am right there with you sister!
Quote: I feel really stuck these days, and I don't know what to do next. I have no 180 ideas, nothing, my mind is wanting to shut down and say the hell with all. Except for when I want it to - like when I need to sleep. I never had trouble falling asleep before, now all of a sudden - I can't seem to shut everything off.
I have the same problem, someone on this board recommended Sleepytime tea by Celestial Seasonings. I add some splenda and a little milk and it does the trick.
Quote: So what am I even doing here? If he wanted me, it wouldn't be like this. I know how he is, if he wants something - he goes after it. I don't know what to do as far our situation goes...I'm at a real loss of ideas. The only thing that I can think of is to break off all contact.
You are at a low point right now, possibly due to PMS. Let go, do something fun. Color easter eggs with your kids, laugh, enjoy yourself!
Quote: don't know anymore. I'm a single mom raising three little kids. I'm reliant on him for my income...hah! I'm not going to whine, I'm just trying to get out of this rut I'm in and I've run out of ideas. My job search is not working out, by the time I find one, D7 will be out of school for the summer. More $ on daycare - it won't even be worth it for me to work, not financially, anyway.
Again, I am right there with you. Even though I'm technically married I feel like a "single" mom with 3 little kids plus two dogs and two cats and a house to take care of. The only thing I can really rely on from my H is $ and believe me there is very little left after he goes out spending it on his secret life every day.
Ok, enough of the pity party. Get back on that DB wagon. "just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly - anonymous"
